Yeah
Sometimes, I'm not sure
If people really, fully
Fully, understand how
How close to the edge I get, gee
This ain't just lyrics, dawg
Looking back now, I can clearly see
Like a rear view mirror, exactly how
I push the people, who mean the most
Who come the closest right, back out, back out, back out
My life black out, these lights, I think I take a nap now
An' when I wake up, I make up with everyone who mad now
But, for now I'm in dream world
Shamu here, I'm in Sea World
Big fish in a small pond
While, I'm at it let's see how many girls
Hearts, I can shatter into a million pieces
'Cause I'm a rockstar, changin' timezones
Ain't got no time, for your feelings
Jesus, I need you to take the lead in me an' delete in me
Whatever's keeping me, from acting decently
'Cause recently, I'm noticin'
This beast in me is eatin' me alive
An' I'm about to die
If you ain't bleed for me
See, it be shit like that the people see
An' wanna beef with me
Like, oh you hear his lyrics
I don't even think, that he believe
God forbid, I'll take a minute to be honest
An' try my best to express, how much all the stress of this is grief in me
'Cause I really don't know what it is, or what it ain't about me
But, I promise you this chasin' rich, is gonna make you drowsy
So, here it goes time to admit out loud, I've been a lousy
Friend and a family member ever since, I headed down the
Path, that I'm on, and I've been living, like it never haunt me
Well, here it is, son of a bitch, I guess it finally caught me
Maybe, it's people in this business, that'd hang around me
Either way whatever it is somethin', done changed about me
'Cause, I used to be so full of love
Now, I'm just full of shit
Not all the time, 'cause when I'm jotting rhymes, truth all you get
Other than that, I bottle It all up
Turn the bottles up, while I swallow down
So now, I'm drunk, turn the volume up, while jottin' down
My feelings, that I bury, 'til I make it to the top
But, what's the point of makin' it there, if the top is all you got
For years, I pushed so many people to the background
Had tunnel vision, now I see it, an' I want 'em back now
I said I'm done a hundred times, that's why life is one of one
I wrote a hundred rhymes, just to get one number one
An' in the process, I forgot who really number one
I pushed my whole life to the background, look at what I've done
I said I'm done a hundred times, life this one o' one
I wrote a hundred rhymes, just to get one number one
An' in the process, I forgot who really number one
Who really number one?