You've complicated love for me
The last time i felt good
I was with you at the mall
I hadn't seen you in six months
We watched a shitty horror movie
You moved to Malaysia to be with me
And we got caught making out
And got kicked out of the theatre
My parents were at home
Thinking I was having lunch with Gabriel
Nobody ever held me like you did
The sheer weight of the farewells that we bid
But that's alright
Thank you for the denim jacket
I wear it everywhere I go
Not because you bought it for me
It just fits me like a glove
But you know
You know my measurements
Better than I do
And one day
You changed the tone in our Skype calls
You don't answer my texts
And i get high to take my mind off
This goes on for six days
Then i lose my composure
"Girl, what the hell is wrong?"
She says, "There's something
I should have told you, there's this guy"
And we were both drunk and high
He's a few years older than you
And I think he's Costarican
I say, "forget the goddamn details
And tell me what you're meaning?"
But i knew from the moment i saw her eyes
Shame can be so difficult to hide
But that's alright (that's alright...)
You used to tutor your classmates
And fail your own tests
You made me watch obscure anime
And bookmark Pinterests of home decor
One day we'll have a house and things will get better
Than they are now
And I feel like a badass for dating someone older
The validation of maturity it made me act so much bolder
And it's stuck with me to this very day
This is not a song about how you broke my heart
And that I'll never be okay
It's just that nothing feels like how it did with you
I feel ghosts of your presence in this room
But that's alright (that's alright...)
And I don't hate you for what you did
I just wish you didn't do it
Things would be so simple
And I'm not strong enough
To go through it all again
But thank you for showing me what love meant
Thank you for showing me what love meant
The time we spent
What love meant
The time we spent
What love meant