I was raised to think I was gonna die
Every time I told a damn good lie
God would strike me down with all of His might
He was only waiting for the perfect time
Used to love a girl, used to love a man
Used to sin a lot just to test his plan
I was only searching for a reprimand
Instead, I found a silence I could barely stand
Tried to heal the sick, tried to always pray
Tried to move a mountain with my ill-fed faith
Went and told the gospel to an old friend's grave
Guess it's all in vain 'cause he was not saved
I found myself, found myself
Found myself standing alone at a crossroad
Told myself, told myself I can find my way home
(You keep laughing at my plans, though)
As if I'm the only one
That only feels alive in the danger
As if I'm the only one
That wanted to believe something greater
Used to raise my hands and then bow my head
Superstitious motions to decrease the dread
I was only bargaining with God and death
"Only 21, please, don't take my breath"
I'm not really sure if He's all that mad
Kinda good at things that are not so bad
Haven't seen His face, haven't felt His hand
Either He's a phony or He understands
I found myself, found myself
Found myself standing alone at a crossroad
Told myself, told myself I can find my way home
(You keep laughing at my plans, though)
As if I'm the only one
That only feels alive in the danger
As if I'm the only one
That wanted to believe something greater
(Wanted to believe something greater)
I what wanted to believe something greater
(Wanted to believe something greater)
I what wanted to believe something greater
(Wanted to believe something greater)
I what wanted to believe something greater
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'Cause they talk a big game when nothing's wrong
There's nothing more to life but hearing God
Guess I could believe that there's something else
But I never really liked asking for help