When she told me the news she had tears in her eyes She knew I wouldn't feel the same It wasn't part of my plan What about my dreams? I was a selfish man I was pathetic I couldn't handle the pressure My weakness won I couldn't keep it together I will never forgive myself for what I've done These dreams will always haunt me I just wish you hadn't gone away To the child that I'll never hold (I'm sorry) To my child who will never grow old (I'm so sorry) To your mother who will always love you (I'm sorry) I failed you both and I will always remember We were to bring a life into this world But how could we when our own lives had withered? How could I make another person like me? To make a life like this would be a fucking tragedy But when you went away another part of me died I'd never see you I'd never hear you I'd never touch or even be near you To the child that I'll never hold (I'm sorry) To my child who will never grow old (I'm so sorry) To your mother who will always love you (I'm sorry) I failed you both and I will always remember I'm so sorry I'm sorry If there's a life after death, I hope you found it I hope to see you there someday If there's a life after death, I hope you found it But I know we won't end up in the same place Oh God! Paternal failure at best With your passing went the last of our passion Our lives together were all but lost