You don't understand the pain I feel
You don't know how much I hate to be me
No, you don't understand the pain I feel
You don't know how much I hate to be me
Yeah, I feel happy and sad, I feel like a contradiction
She hurt me after she promised me that this time was different
So now my guard's up, I lost my trust, hopin' I can fix it
Should've trust my gut, was hurt by love, so that's why I'm defensive
You said you loved me, then hurt me, something ain't adding up
I cried, burying the future that I had planned for us
I'm tryna outrun my past, I guess I'm not fast enough
It's crazy how these people we meet can just damage us
But fuck it, I'll just move along, and wipe away my tears
I've always held my own, I been alone for all these years
My biggest fear is wasting time on somebody who does me wrong
Who didn't love me, who was fronting, and using me like a pawn
Sometimes I feel unlovable, my heart's undiscoverable
Hate living in misery, my misery's insufferable
Hurt by the ones we love the most, the toughest pill to swallow
My heart used to be full, but now it's hollow, so no
You don't understand the way I feel
You don't understand how much I hate to be me
'Cause I break down and crumble, feel so alone
My life's a struggle nobody knows, so
You don't understand how much I hate to be me
You and I tried to be
Held you down, why'd you leave?
Why'd you leave?
Why'd you leave?
Why'd you leave?
Why'd you leave?
You don't understand the pain I feel
You don't know how much I hate to be me