Forty four years of the shit, I had a shovel through Had to admit off the rip, thought it was because of you Went and caught a buzz or two, running from the you know Who's had to have seen all the struggle that I've been going through From cop cars to lock bars to hittin' fences Top bars with rock stars, to get in lifted I shot par through 9 holes, but still ain't trippin' I got scars with five o, but still ain't listened The weight as heavy I'm strong can you see me getting weaker Gotta muster up and move on, I'm on my last sneakers I snatch up leaders at Mass, harass tweakers at last I have speakers that blast, i'm laughing but i'm sad The best thing that I had, is gone now that i'm at A bad place with an axe, i'm grasping from my last breath I just don't know what I got left God listen to me please don't wear me down anymore I don't know I got left I'm staring at the mirror and I don't know where to go I'm worried that I might just die if you wear me down anymore I don't know what I got left I'm staring at the mirror and it feels like I lost myself The struggle is real but are you, sometimes I asked that question I know the pain that I feel, gonna to be a hard lesson This got me guessing dressed up as disguise blessings A smoke session the only way to relieve my stressin' That fake love, that make up to break up love It's all lust no trust disgusted hate love And I hate the fact that my issues are so deep-rooted And I hate the fact that my heart is so polluted Deluded not watered down, up rooted I'm just a clown A fool who wanders round, the downtown of most towns Now I'm back on the road again, alone again Out on a boat 6 seats, only one rowing it The poet's lit, I'm so legit they knowing it Wont ever quit, I'm on my shit don't blow it kid Remember this, when it goes click just know I did Everything I could but I failed So please don't show my kids God listen to me please don't wear me down anymore I don't know what I got left I'm staring at the mirror and I don't know where to go I'm worried that I might just die if you wear me down anymore I don't know what I got left I'm staring at the mirror and it feels like I lost myself God listen to me please don't wear me down anymore I don't know what I got left I'm staring at the mirror and I don't know where to go I'm worried that I might just die if you wear me down anymore I don't know what I got left I'm staring at the mirror and it feels like I lost myself