How can I live like this I climb to the top of the mountain Only to fall right back to the fucking bottom I've been trying to find the answers But the words still pass me by As much as I think I've learned I still destroy myself I can feel numbness caving in again I still feel like a failure Hiding away in the corners of my mind My pain is self inflicted I hold onto my regrets Only to repeat them Fall into the deepest pit And let it fucking swallow me Sitting in the dark just leave me alone I here you talking but I'm not listening Self loathing Saboteur Keep falling into my own traps How can I live like this I climb to the top of the mountain Only to fall right back to the fucking bottom I've been trying to find the answers But the words still pass me by As much as I think I've learned I still destroy myself I'm still learning to love myself I am not my own enemy I'm trying my best to overcome my flaws and become a better man I climb to the top of the mountain Just to fall back down How can I live like this I climb to the top of the mountain Only to fall right back to the fucking bottom I've been trying to find the answers But the words still pass me by As much as I think I've learned I still destroy myself