Yeah, they said it's all in your head Get up off your feet and fucking do it But I'm a mess depressed can't get out of bed They say I've been making excuses Drinking again Overthinking again Sinking again See, I could use a life raft I write tracks just to fight back Personal demons won't ever leave him These personal demons won't ever won't ever leave him You could say that I'm caught up but You you'll never know the pain that I've had to bury You could say that it's all love but You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry You could say that I'm caught up but You you'll never know the pain that I've had to bury You could say that it's all love but You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry People leave People change Nothing in life will stay the same People leave People change Nothing in life nothing in life stays the same This is for everybody with all of these problems I never knew how to handle mine And every step I ever make is over analyzed They say that life's a beach right Well, this sand is slowly slippin' through the hands of time I've been learning all my lessons Burning all my bridges Worsening depression. What's worse is that I can't fix it I've been searching where my head is. Internalized my afflictions So don't turn to me for direction I'm working on being distant Don't call I don't wanna talk right now Hold off Can't give you my all right now I've been losing my light as I've been stuck in this solstice And there's no solutions in sight I just wanted some solace I can't confuse this with spite I just struggle to cope with the illusions of life Or a summoned psychosis See, I'm close to the edge but it's out of control Shit, I'm broken. I'm bent I'm jumbled Unfocused You could say that I'm caught up but You you'll never know the pain that I've had to bury You could say that it's all love but You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry You could say that I'm caught up but You you'll never know the pain that I've had to bury You could say that it's all love but You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry People leave People change Nothing in life will stay the same People leave People change Nothing in life nothing in life stays the same I'm waging wars within myself to set aside my pride to love Responsibility is what I'm always hiding from Sadness that's inside my cup Cheers to tears I line 'em up I'm living life on the edge 'til I decide to jump The guilt kills me I look at life with apathy I gaze into the mirror, there's a monster staring back at me Oh, baby, I've been drinking to forget you Another bottle polished, but I can't seem to let loose And just like how the seasons change I see a change in me I'm still losing leaves. One day I'll see the man I aim to be I'm always seeking refuge finding hope in the bourbon While I'm crying out to God that I will grow as person I still live with regret My heart ripped through my chest Yeah, your lips are like razors when you're kissing my neck So kill me Yeah, I pray the Lord my soul to take There's comfort in the grave before I find it in your cold embrace You could say that I'm caught up but You you'll never know the pain that I've had to bury You could say that it's all love but You'll never know the weight that I've had to carry People leave People change Nothing in life will stay the same People leave People change Nothing in life nothing in life stays the same