Never have I taken the time to mourn Fiddled with the planning stage in silence Hope you haunt me in my sleep, I promise To welcome being dragged around my apartment Take me by the ankles to make it true Paranormal myths you warned me in passing I neglected to say goodbye instead I satisfied teenage desires Couldn't deal with distress So I stayed within the doorframe Years of prep Had me numb to the stench of death To hell with apologies You'll never be in front of me Wasted on a third attempt Tithing in confession wells You exist in the vase in the living room Formless ash in the hum we can't detune Oh I'm parsing through Through the current mood Wrapped around my throat; I choke Often when I think of you To hell with apologies You'll never be in front of me Wasted on a third attempt Tithing in confession wells Here I am pulling teeth Clawing through apologies The lord will never pardon me In a last ditch attempt I'm feeling guilty still Hospice in familiar rooms I haven't gotten taller Just callous and irritable Just callous and irritable