My friends always ask me if I'd ever let go again
I never respond 'cause I'm scared that I might sound insane
Or maybe I'm just afraid of the answer (answer)
'Cause I don't wanna believe that I could ever (ever)
Be in control enough so I don't lose it all
I've gained way too much, man, I can't afford to fall
As long as my past and I are still out at war
I promised myself I wouldn't let down my guard
I've been holdin' myself back
Damn, I forgot how to live
I've been tryin' to be perfect
I didn't even question it
I think I forgot
How I'm supposed to live
Yeah, I think I fucked up
I just wanna live
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One, two, almost three years went by
Without anything easing my mind
I need some damn peace, oh my
It's gettin' harder to get through the night
So I roll it up for them
And I watch them breathe it in
I don't think they understand
Just how bad I wish that I was them
I've been holdin' myself back
Damn, I forgot how to live
I've been tryin' to be perfect
I didn't even question it
I think I forgot
How I'm supposed to live
Yeah, I think I fucked up
I just wanna live
Fucked up, fucked up, fucked up, fucked up
I've been holdin' myself back
Damn, I forgot how to live
I've been tryin' to be perfect
I didn't even question it
I think I forgot
How I'm supposed to live
Yeah, I think I fucked up
I just wanna live
I've been holdin' myself back
Damn, I forgot how to live
I've been tryin' to be perfect
I didn't even question it
I think I forgot
How I'm supposed to live
Yeah, I think I fucked up
I just wanna live
I just wanna live