I don't believe it, I fight and died for nothing Such marvelous nightmare or such horrible dream Structure sick society, everything down to the deep shit Talk random weird thing, in a mental institution You're not my angel, I refuse to become your victim Dying with your spell, searching love in dwelling hell Death smile to all, we just can smile back In the darkness, in the shadow, never talk about that before I need to know, I need to know Why everything abuse, insult me in these sadness, sorrow I need, bright light (I'm not insane) I need eyes to see everything inside, inside (You never know inside my heart) Underworld antic and wrath absurdities collide, collide (Just holding my pain) Particular hideous freak, mysterious fatuous device, device (Until I meet my almighty God) Deep in consciousness and disobey my God Have you ever been in a place where your hopes are gone? (I am so alone) Under pressure, where people don't want to understand? (Despise) Crowded inside my head (Oh God) I couldn't hold myself to kill someone (Suicide)