Lately I can't even sit straight
My eyes as dilated as can be
This person in the mirror isn't me
How can I tell you
All the things that make me go insane
While your egos standing in the way
All the smoke green as a gecko
I hear your voice echo
Too static, no shock though
Visions in my head are total mayhem
I don't wanna face em so I push em down and let em fade
You just want to be viral, at least take the high road
Admit that you don't care
We're beginning to spiral
Way outta bounds
In my dreams just like 'whoa there'
I'm at peace in denial but grief isn't idle it hits out of nowhere
Didn't think you would go there
Betrayed and invaded; inflated yourself
Now look back in regret
As you slowly descend
The water's surrounding me now
It's dark at the bottom
I can't find a way out
I hold my breath but it's meaningless
Counting em down
Every seconds an hour
I savor the sound
Of sirens above
Feels like I'm cursed inside
I'll never find the words to burn these ties
I blurred these lines between real life and paranormal
Paranoid of each shadow on the ground
Realized as the windows caved in
I kept my faith
I only leave the house at midnight
Walk a couple miles down the road
The cemetery lights emit a glow
That doesn't fit right
The summer air's unnaturally cold
I swore I saw the shadow of a ghost
Visions in my head are total mayhem
I don't want to see em
So I push them down and let em fade
I pull up at the door, 7 am
Tylenol PM
So I'm sleeping silent through the day
Then repeat the cycle
At least take the high road
Admit that you don't care
I'm at peace in denial
But grief isn't idle
It hits out of nowhere
I wake up at 11 on a mission
Try to put an end to this condition
Voices in my head won't even listen
High beams on the river seem to glisten
As they crash through the guard rails and slowly descend
The water's surrounding me now
It's dark at the bottom
I can't find a way out
I hold my breath but it's meaningless
Counting em down
Every seconds an hour
I savor the sound
Of sirens above
Feels like I'm cursed inside
I'll never find the words to burn these ties
I blurred these lines between real life and paranormal
Paranoid of each shadow on the ground
Realized as the windows caved in
I kept my faith in
The doubts in which I drowned
The doubts in which I drowned