Aye tell the truth I don't even know where to begin I've been so confused and patience has been wearing thin So I create these beats to try and give me peace of mind Hoping I release these thoughts that have intertwined Within my heart, soul, and spirit I need clarity Cause all this pain that I've been feeling has been scaring me Like why am I this way All these thoughts in disarray I just pray one day that all this hurt will dissipate It's been a couple months since I sat and wrote a song And all these troubled months make me feel like I don't belong Up in this music shit I feel like I'm losing it I try and speak my heart but I feel like I'm mute and shit Fuck Or maybe that's just all inside my head And maybe I'm the reason why these tears always shed Or maybe I just gotta' snap the fuck up out this mess Or maybe I'm just meant to hate myself and be depressed I really wish I had some answers now All these questions really weigh me down Lately it's been hard to crack a smile I cry alone when no one's around I really wish I had some answers now All these questions really weigh me down Lately it's been hard to crack a smile I cry alone when no one's around I try my best to give the best of me I write this poetry in hopes one day it sets me free I open up my wounds so I can help you cope with yours The rain will vanish soon and sunshine will be restored Haha, but who the fuck am I to preach to you When I'm still lost myself and struggling to see it through Feel like a hypocrite cause, I don't take my own advice I write these scrips and shit but, I don't play these roles in life It's obvious that I'm unstable and I got my issues I feel disabled mentally from all the shit I been through Heart broken, I start choking when tryna' vent My heart's stolen and cut open from past events Fuck I'm sad and happy with this life I live One day I'm happy and the next wanna' jump off a cliff Damn I hope one day I finally find some balance I hope I find some peace of mind somewhere throughout this madness I really wish I had some answers now All these questions really weigh me down Lately it's been hard to crack a smile I cry alone when no one's around I really wish I had some answers now All these questions really weigh me down Lately it's been hard to crack a smile I cry alone when no one's around