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There's no one else to blame, I cause my own solitude
I'm the reason why my heart is ripped apart in two
Looked in the mirror and that person there I hardly knew
Like, who the fuck am I? And who have I been talking to
'Cause these voices in my head are always talking back
Conversing with myself 'cause I feel like I'm all I have
And I'ma take the blame, ain't tryna point no fucking fingers
I can't escape the rain, no matter what, pain always lingers
I stay away from everyone I love
No matter what I do, I still feel like I'm not enough
Oh, would you give a fuck if I just chose to end it all?
And if you do, then how the fuck can you just watch me fall?
Can't you see my walls are closing in?
Can't you hear the pain and suffering I'm holding in?
I need help, I'm just afraid to ask
I'm no longer in control, I'm just waiting to crash
I'm so fucked up, I know
I have been dying slow
Please take my pain, away
I can no longer stay
I isolate myself 'cause I'm embarrassed of this shit
'Cause everybody knows I hate the fact that I exist
I let my secrets out and everybody knows the truth
They know my suicidal tendencies are self-induced
I know there's no excuse why I should wanna end my life
I'm well aware the grass is greener on the other side
I should be grateful, right? So where's the disconnect?
When I feel happy, why does sadness always interject?
It's like my misery is predetermined
I try and smile but deep inside, I'm always weak and hurtin'
I know the devil's near and always lurkin'
I feel his presence every time the sun begins emerging
I been searching for so fuckin' long
For a light that will remain permanently on
But that light forever seems to fade
Perhaps the dark is just impossible to evade
I'm so fucked up, I know
I have been dying slow
Please take my pain, away
I can no longer stay