I got this bullet by my side with my name on it
If I pull it don't you cry I can't take this shit
The silence never felt this loud before please make it stop
I hear the sirens right outside my door as my body drops
Oh no
I'm trying hard to be strong
Why does being alive feel intrinsically wrong
Every night I'm gone getting higher than a bitch
Popping all these pills then I take a couple swigs
Whiskey in my liver and this smoke in my lungs
Heart growing bitter I don't like who I've become
Always on the run from myself every chance I get
I don't ask for help cause they abandon ship
So I sink by my lonely
And I drink till' I feel like the old me
But I know that this potion is falsehood
I guess truth and I started on the wrong foot
So I dance with these pretty lies
In a trance while the pain's hidden in disguise
Take a quick look in his eyes
You can tell he's unhealthy and sick inside
And nothing feels the same
Everything feels so strange
Why must everything change
My thoughts are so deranged
Inside my brain is hell
I wish I could dispel
This curse that's plaguing me
Oh good luck saving me
I got this bullet by my side with my name on it
If I pull it don't you cry I can't take this shit
The silence never felt this loud before please make it stop
I hear the sirens right outside my door as my body drops
Oh no