Lately
I been reflecting on my mental state
Crazy
How the fuck did I end up this way
Maybe
One day I'll be able to explain
All these unresolved discrepancies inside my brain
Or
Perhaps I'll never quite understand
These complexities that swallow me like quicksand
Got me drowning slow deeper down the rabbit hole
Don't wanna' lose my soul searching for this pot of gold
No
Cause lord knows I wanna' be rich
Prove everybody wrong that said I wouldn't be shit
When I would dream big motherfuckers made me feel small
That shit was hurtful but regardless my heart stood tall
Yeah
Can you tell my thoughts are everywhere
I'd be lying if I told you I was never scared
I'm well aware that this life is unpredictable
And I can swear that my love is uncondtional
Walking on the edge between life and death
I can feel this knife inside my chest
Tryna' catch my breath but life moves too fast
This bleeding heart of mine is seeping through the cracks
And I swear it breaks my heart looking in your eyes
How much life is there left in you before you die
And I cry inside every time I see you smile
Cause I know that you know time is running out
While the sun is out have one last dance with me
If I'm looking down it's only cause I'm panicking
Tragedy and agony ensues us
Imagine we weren't damaged and weren't bruised up
I think I'm finally at a loss for words
So I smoke fill my lungs up with all this herb
So much hurt in my heart got me growing weak
I feel safe in the dark when I go to sleep
Oh, oh please someone notice me
Hold me tight just in case I lose control of me
Fuck
Or maybe I should just let go of me
Cross my heart pray the lord for my soul to keep