Everyday's another battle I'm fighting for peace of mind
I've been walking through the gallows the shadows creeping behind
So I'm lighting up this candle to guide me out the abyss
Swear this pain's too much to handle when happiness is eclipsed
So I wish upon a star for the suffering to desist
Only if I could restart and repair my heart to be fixed
Loneliness and hopelessness both together should not be mixed
I been folding under pressure popping pills and taking swigs
I ain't proud of what I've done I swear it hurts to reminisce
I don't know who I become every time this depression hits
Push away the ones I love and lose myself in solitude
I don't know who I can trust cause no one ever follows through
So I loathe inside my crib and lose myself within these walls
I'm sorry for my sins I know I'm basking in my flaws
I hope that you forgive me cause I can't forgive myself
I know I'm slowly slipping down this hole right straight to hell oh no
I feel so alone feel so broken
My soul is turning cold now it's frozen
I try to open up but I break down
I need to sober up no I ain't proud
Tryna' run away from my sorrows
Wish I could numb the pain with this bottle
I need someone to save me from myself
My faith is slowly breaking I might fail
Everyday's another puzzle I struggle to figure out
And this pain in me is subtle it's coupled with fear and doubt
So much trouble in my soul got me desperate to say goodbye
Wondering if letting go is the answer to all my whys
I been dealing with this misery killing me ever slow
I been searching for my healing by sinking way deep below
Knowing damn well that these drugs are corrupting my broken heart
Know you can tell that these cuts got me bleeding mentally scarred
If I fall will you be there to lift me up from my lows
If I knocked and rang your doorbell would you leave the door closed
Would you let me in and shelter me from my own past
Would you never leave and still hold onto my cold hands
Do you trust who I am and who I'm destined to be
Will you please help me plan to set myself free from me
From the chains of my tears and all the guilt in my heart
I pray that I persevere to lead the world out the dark
Amen
I feel so alone feel so broken
My soul is turning cold now it's frozen
I try to open up but I break down
I need to sober up no I ain't proud
Tryna' run away from my sorrows
Wish I could numb the pain with this bottle
I need someone to save me from myself
My faith is slowly breaking I might fail