I know I let you down I swear I'm sorry for that shit I'm sorry that I fucked around I never cared about that bitch I was focused on the wrong things Slowly felt my heart sink Carving out your name upon my flesh you hear my heartbeat Racing like a car meet Chasing you in my dreams Running for your love fucked up on drugs memories haunt me Daunting moments in my head they never end what do I do Longing for some peace of mind I can't take this impending doom No I can't take this impending doom My brain is an abyss I think my heart would like to rent a room Wish I could restart and take apart the broken parts within Tryna' sow my scars with poems and art as I confess my sins If there's a god I wonder what he thinks Puking in the sink from popping pills with all these whiskey drinks Hidden screams echo inside my head it's hard to shut them out This kerosene might rescue me from dread that eats me inside out This cloud It towers over me eclipses light Slowly it devours faith until there is no hope in sight Don't wanna' die I wanna' live I wanna' make this last Wish to proceed in life but I'm so caught up in the past