It's like I'm just
It's like I'm just existing at this point
I'm losing my faith
Forgetting my purpose
And losing sense of everything that once mattered to me
Take my tears turn em' into wine
Everyday I'm scared less of dying
Growing jaded from the cold wind
My soul is tainted heart frozen
What is love if it causes pain
Up above is that all in vain
Hard to find where my faith is at
Maybe one day I'll take it back
Maybe one day I'll be okay
Hard to stomach these lonely days
Soul ablaze will I burn in hell
So much rage and I hate myself
How much more will my soul endure
What the fuck am I hoping for
Everyday is the same ol shit
What if happiness don't exist
No
What if happiness don't exist
And all these problems just can't be fixed
No
What if happiness don't exist
Fuck
What if happiness don't exist
What if happiness don't exist
And these damages can't be fixed
What if sadness is all you feel
Flashbacks become all too real
What's a God when you live with demons
Every thought is so damn deceiving
Hard to smile when inside I'm grieving
Bleeding out no one hears me screaming fuck
So many answers with no explanations
How the fuck can I bow down to a God who leaves his own child forsaken
Growing cold my soul is vacant
No one knows I'm slowly breaking
If he jumps off no one save him
If he jumps off no one save him
It feels like I'm falling deeper and deeper and deeper into this endless void
It's dark in here
I'm lost
I'm lost
Everyday the burden deepens on me
Feels like a million demons on me
My anxiety's been rampant
Out in public and I start to panic
I been damaged by my own blood
So I don't trust and I don't open up
The soul of man is broken so corrupt
I'm sick of hoping that I fall in love
With life again I'm dying within it hurts
Can't help but feel this all that I deserve
I'm sorry for the words I never said
One half of me is numb the others dead
No
One half of me is numb the others dead
My sanity has sunken me in debt
With misery this hell will never end