Dear God
I'm reachin' out
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I need some answers
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Hey-yo
Smoke away my pain
In a hope, one day, that I'll find my closure
Lookin' in a mirror
I hate that person, when I'm sober
Same sad song, on repeat
Like, when will this be over?
Toss and turn, I can't get to sleep
Now, my nights feel even colder
Yeah, fightin' with the undertow, I'm tired of swimmin'
I overcame some obstacles, but yet, I'm far from winnin'
And please don't talk to me with that tone, when it's condescendin'
It went from rainin', to it's pourin', now it's fuckin' hailin'
Lord, I'm a sinner, please forgive me, 'cause, I'm stressin' daily
I'm feeling guilty, 'cause I do not spend much time with family
I'm 28, but yet, there's still no one that understands me
I sit alone, in darkness, lost for words, as I am panting
I still got some trauma, haven't fully healed from it
Repeated actions, got my mind thinkin', I'ma plummet
Wonder if I'll reach my full potential, I've been doubting
Must be time to switch it up, change up my surroundings
Smoke away my pain
In a hope, one day, that I'll find my closure
Lookin' in a mirror
I hate that person, when I'm sober
Same sad song, on repeat
Like, when will this be over?
Toss and turn, I can't get to sleep
Now, my nights feel even colder
My last relationship, it made me question, who I am
Only toxic women, I'm attractin', there's a sign
So unhealthy, constant tension, need a better plan
I should be single, 'til I'm feelin' truly whole inside
Look in my eyes, It's a horror story, can't describe it
I'm goin' through the motions, everyday, on autopilot
Maybe, see a therapist, so I can talk about it
Instead of bein' so delusional, and not acknowledged
Anxiety has got me on the edge, can hardly breathe
I don't wanna die, before I leave a legacy
I'm hopin' that my momma, truly fuckin' proud of me
And I can flourish, as a person with sobriety
Smoke away my pain
In a hope, one day, that I'll find my closure
Lookin' in a mirror
I hate that person, when I'm sober
Same sad song, on repeat
Like, when will this be over?
Toss and turn, I can't get to sleep
Now, my nights feel even colder