It feels like I'm drowning
I wake up, I'm bruised and battered
I finally stop spinning
And the ocean goes on forever and ever
What we have isn't perfect, but fuck it we're trying
I struggle with certainty, and the truth is I'm lying
My heart is a mess inside
But I know I'm fine enough
I'm seasick
Took my heart, I didn't know that I needed it
Fall apart, the very second we're leaving and then
I wasn't smart, couldn't even bear to see the ship go under
The very second we had sundered
And that's the last time I fall apart to save myself
Our story passed time, written like a book up on the shelf
And I swear I'm always fucking up, nowhere to run
Everything is uncomfortable, it's never fun
And I wonder why I'm staying up to see the sun
Maybe I should just go to bed
What we have isn't perfect, but fuck it we're trying
I struggle with certainty, and the truth is I'm lying
My heart is a mess inside
But I know I'm fine enough
I'm stuck underwater
And I just cannot find the space to breathe
It's hotter and hotter
I sweat through my collar when you're with me
Took it all in I just sat back
I don't wanna fall don't wanna backtrack
You saw my heart and you cracked that
I saw your heart and it's matte black
I saw your heart
You know it's not perfect
But fuck it we're trying
So let's get something working
What we have isn't perfect, but fuck it we're trying
I struggle with certainty, and the truth is I'm lying
My heart is a mess inside
But I know I'm fine enough
I'm seasick
(If you're not coming with me)
(Save it, you don't deserve me)
(If you're not coming with me)
(Save it, you don't deserve me)