It should have been me, but I don't deserve it It's just what you wanted it to be Manipulating a part of the process But why do I care No interest in me What am I supposed to feel, if you're not with me? I just need to fill the void until you let me down ever so gently What about you Do you feel the same? Forget about values, what about me Nothing to no one, see purpose in me The weight that I carry, too strong to release You make things much worse, some things you can't see Pull me under the water, I don't need relief I want shallow breaths beneath me How can I pretend to keep feeling? Transparency, I see right through you Look me in the eyes, do you miss it Having you closer to me would make no sense Was it love or lust What am I supposed to feel, if you're not with me? I just need to fill the void until you let me down ever so gently What about you Do you feel the same? Forget about values, what about me Time is not a factor, stop acting like it is But I can't sit and wait for, fiction to exist So start coming back when you need to be where I am Am I just a void or am I something missing