I never thought it'd be this hard to fuel the fire A flaming beacon shining through the dark of night I never thought it'd be this hard to say goodbye To all the things I thought would keep my soul alight My story isn't over, but I've reached this chapter's end And I don't have a notion as to how to start again When the rain falls down, and my soul pours out And the flame within me's burning down It's so, so hard for my trembling heart To hold to hope as it all goes up in smoke I never thought it'd be this hard to find my way Seeking, searching, in this lonesome world of grey My lantern only lights so far beyond the place I stand To guide me past the treacherous chasms of this unknown land When the rain falls down, and my soul pours out And my roadmap's gone, and I'm feeling lost I try to see what's in front of me In a nameless land, and all I see is smoke So tell me why I feel an overwhelming peace Tell me why I feel a fullness in my need From life to life, from death to death, I trust Him for His grace Behind a frown in Providence, He hides a smiling face When the rain falls down, and my soul pours out I'm burdened down, but I won't burn out I'll testify, to my world I'll cry Jesus made my life go up in smoke