This is not a love song
Dedicated to nobody
First of all: fuck you, girl let me be clear
Assuming this a love song, that ain't what you expect to hear
Cause I could write a thousand bars, bout how yo eyes look like stars
But ain't none of that is real, that ain't what I really feel
Cause Fuck you for making me feel like an idiot at times
But in fact I'm pretty stupid around you
Fuck you for making me lose myself
But I'm so thankful I found you
So thank you but fuck you still
Fuck you for making me find someone I care for more than myself
Damn we made it so far but now letting go might help
So fuck you for making getting over you so damn hard
You hit me where I least expected it
Caught me off guard
Most things must come to an end but I just couldn't resist it
Never felt so close to anyone over such long distance
Fuck you for making me overthink every single word I say
The hopelessness of of trying to say the wrong things the right way
Cause there's just so much racing through my mind every day
Fuck you for making me apologise for mistakes I've not yet made
I just got so many words in my head looking for the right ones
Cause these the ones you deserve
Scared of letting something loose that I wanna preserve
So fuck you for making sure that losing you fucking hurts
And I know ain't even half the shit I said is your fault
But still, it was you who made me break my own walls
So fuck you for all you made me go through
You pissed me of you made me laugh
How the fuck am I supposed to
Get you out head out my heart
Yeah, reminisce the time of us talking till it's dark
Yeah fuck you for all the smiles
Fuck you for making me doubt If I made it worth your while
Fuck you for making me pour out my heart and soul
And still not think that it suffices
Fuck you for seeing the me that is hidden behind my vices
Girl you trapped me in a feeling with so little I can do
You made me win so much
And now there's just so much I can lose
The list is long, but honestly I'm running out of things to say
It's just crazy how you made me better in so many ways
So fuck you for changing me
Fuck you for making me another person rearranging me
Cause the person I am now is no good if I don't have you
Fuck you girl 'cause I'm no good if I don't have you
Fuck you girl for the way you made me feel
Fuck you for dragging me out of fiction
Making me feel something real
So to finish this I wanna say I'm over you
Over the lonely nights desperate trying to cope with you
I'm in the clear with the fact there is no hope with you
Sold the illusion, girl now I own the truth
Now every second girl I see give me the impression she wanna bone
So I deleted all our chats
And changed your name up in my phone
Never ever really been a player
My gut just tells me bang her
But then I don't wanna play her
Shit, imma take a break with the love
Realised I got bad stakes with the love
Made some mistakes with the love
So fuck love fuck you
Fuck you for making me love you
But that ain't no more