I saw the end.
I saw the ending at the start.
Though I never said a word aloud,
I knew it in my heart.
All I ever wanted
Was to make the smiles real.
I felt that was worth the hurt
And time it took to heal.
Though I knew I never could,
I swore I'd make it through.
If you repeat ideas enough,
It doesn't make them true.
I tried
To force my circles into squares
And I denied
That what I wanted wasn't there.
I looked for light
In corners darker than the dark side of the moon.
But still, in spite of you
I shine
Like a lantern in the night.
Nowhere to hide.
You've never seen me shine so bright
As I do tonight.
You clipped my wings and cut my claws.
I let it happen then.
I didn't know what I was missing
Until they grew again.
So though it hurt, and oh it hurt,
I tore myself away.
Sometimes you have to bleed before you heal enough
To keep the dark at bay.
I could see so well in the night
That I felt blinded by the sun.
But easy doesn't make it right.
Sometimes it's better just to run.
I tried
To force my circles into squares
And I denied
That what I wanted wasn't there.
I looked for light
In corners darker than the dark side of the moon.
But still, in spite of you
I shine
Like a lantern in the night.
Nowhere to hide.
You've never seen me shine so bright
As I do tonight.
I'm free. I fly. I live. I shine.
I tried
To force my circles into squares
And I denied
That what I wanted wasn't there.
I looked for light
In corners darker than the dark side of the moon.
But still, in spite of you
I shine.