Why do you think this is cool?
Why is drinking alcohol cool?
Or why is riding on a motorcycle cool?
Why is wearing SPF of less than 10 at the beach cool?
That is cool
Because it's dangerous!
It'll all make sense like it did
I'll connect the dots again
And I've been hurting like a kid
And nothing hurts like thinking you'll never be present
I feel like a million bucks
Cause you won't find me in one piece
Oh, please believe the texts I send
Saying I want to connect
Second time, my heart stops
Everything that makes you feel alive, huh?
Feel like a loser
The second inning out
And every time I'm supposed to show
I just give up
Just leave out
Take me out with my mouth
And I know I wouldn't lose you
Keep your mouth shut
Keep your mouth shut, everyone
I'm on the brink of life
In my Nissan Armada
So close to Nirvana
Wishing I could drown out the noise
With the sound of my voice
And my stomach's gripping like a vice
I don't wanna come tonight
But I guess that I'll be there
Looking in the rearview at my hair
Or what's left of this bleached mess
It's the usual suspects
I'm unusually upset
It is a fine night outside of my view
But inside of here, I'm self conscious
And I just can't move
Second time, my heart stops
Everything that made you feel alive, huh?
Feel like a loser
The second inning out
And every time I'm supposed to show
I just give up
Just leave out
Take me out with my mouth
And I know I wouldn't lose you
Keep your mouth shut
Keep your mouth shut, everyone
I've been watching to see if my hope has its limits
From every time that I wished I wasn't alive
So I made up a list of all of the reasons
That life is worth living and prioritized
Oh, it reads that I'm hopeful
That I know I'm right
That the light in the tunnel is well and alive
And believe me, I thought that I gave up on life
But no, I could've loved you if I had just tried
And that's the story of my fucking life
Or so it seems that with effort I can feel the light
And with every big song ends with the word "tonight"
But tonight, I'm feeling useful to myself, alright