I'm from the Montika baby
You know the Montika raised me
UC Brigante
I don't do it so I can feel something
I do it so I can feel nothing
Whenever I want to feel less
I drown in sex
I'm bout to relapse
Call all my hoes up
I'm bout to feel better
I hate being sober
I get high off these bitches
I'm at war with the devil
At the end of the day
I'm just a dirty street lebo
Stay away from me baby cause I'm toxic now
I wish there was a way I can fix it now
I'm toxic baby stay away from me
But if you want you can pray for me
I'm tryna be a good muslim
I'm really fighting my demons
I want to be off my head
I could be having a threesome
She fell in love with a version of me I aspired to be
I knew it never was me
I'm sorry I lied but I tired
I'm better off on this side
I fell in love with these hoes
Laying beside me like roses
I know you feeling my pain
I represent all that's broken
She said I can tell you damaged
By the way you have sex
Never made love in my life
Not even with my ex
How can I be loyal to one
When I put numbers on the board
Had exotic bitches off the boats
The good life make me bored
Can't turn a hoe into a housewife
Turn my wife into a fucking whore
I said it just so you can know
I'm better off all on my own
I'm bout to relapse
Call all my hoes up
I'm bout to feel better
I hate being sober
I get high off these bitches
I'm at war with the devil
At the end of the day
I'm just a dirty street lebo
(Montika)
Stay away from me baby cause I'm toxic now
I wish there was a way I can fix it now
I'm toxic baby stay away from me
But if you want you can pray for me
Fell out of love in my marriage
I'm going back to a savage
I'm going back to my habits
I admit that I'm a addict
I'm myself when I'm inside the trenches
Hanging round the gangsters I'm comfortable
I sit in the trap with my dawgs
I'm trapped in the dunya, insufferable
I'm tryna build me a dynasty
I can't be having no kids
They'll ruin my legacy
Maybe I really need therapy
I loved myself when no one ever loved me
I can't forget it (I remember)
I got the trauma embedded
I know my trauma embedded
Told myself get out your feelings
Young lebo let's get it, I did it
I sit in the mosque at the back
I'm not tryna be noticed
I know my heart is black
A hypocrite and I know it
Mama said hold on the rope and I hold it
I lost the noor on my face and I show it
You gonna grow to resent me
I pray the lord forgive me
I'm bout to relapse
Call all my hoes up
I'm bout to feel better
I hate being sober
I get high off these bitches
I'm at war with the devil
At the end of the day
I'm just a dirty street lebo
(Montika)
Stay away from me baby cause I'm toxic now
I wish there was a way I can fix it now
I'm toxic baby stay away from me
But if you want you can pray for me
I'm going back to jahiliyyah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah yeah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah yeah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah yeah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah
I'm going back to jahiliyyah yeah
I cannot fight all these demons
I cannot fight all these demons
I'm going back to my ways
Pray I'll be okay
I'm going back to the old me huh, yeah
Baby you never met the old me huh, yeah
I can make you never love me huh, yeah
You don't even really know me huh, yeah