One day I decided I was a man
I threw away my toys and tried
My best to understand manly things
Like how to hold in tears
And how to push back all of your fears
Behind your gritted teeth
We were little soldiers who
Wouldn't dare make a sound
We were laughing clowns
With eyes darting around
Desperate not to be found
I thought I had every single answer
But couldn't tell my mum I loved her
Until she got cancer
It's such a cruel comedy
What a twisted world
I could objectify girls before
I could even speak properly
Even now I can't talk openly
With the people closest to me
Kill two birds with one stone
Watch the two of us falling down
Your silence suffocates me and
We'll both drown
Kill two birds with one stone
Watch the two of us falling down
Your silence suffocates me and
We'll both drown
I choked on the words I never spoke
'Till I could barely breathe
Just so you'd see me as a man
Other boys like me
Swallowed too many tears
Until their fears rotted into rage
Meanwhile the girls were
Looking both ways
Over their shoulders
Clutching keys as the sun set
Building a street-wise mindset
Wondering where all their time went
We fell into that same dichotomy
Just like our parents had
You know if you cry
You ain't one of the lads
Kill two birds with one stone
Watch the two of us falling down
Your silence suffocates me and
We'll both drown
Kill two birds with one stone
Watch the two of us falling down
Your silence suffocates me and
We'll both drown