Stacks of unread self help books on my table Telling me to just breathe and to be grateful Im spending all my money on things That I don't need Got a king size bed, but I can't sleep I just wanna feel I just wanna feel fine But I don't know how to deal Don't know how to heal All of the chaos in my mind So I switch up the meds Cut off my friends Go home with someone And try to pretend Say that I'm sorry and do it again Tired of ending all my sentences with sad faces Tired of taking all myhappy thoughts to badplaces And I really wanna change, really wanna be ok But it's hard when everybody's got the the same sad faces Filling every inch of my bathroom mirror With quotes supposed to help me see myself clearer But im spending all my money on things That I don't need I got all this space but I can't breathe I just wanna feel I just wanna feel fine But I don't know how to deal Don't know how to heal All of the chaos in my mind So I switch up the meds Cut off my friends Go home with someone And try to pretend Say that I'm sorry and do it again Tired of ending all my sentences with sad faces Tired of wasting all myhappy thoughts in badplaces And I really wanna change, really wanna be ok But it's hard when everybody's got the same sad faces Tired of ending all my sentences with sad faces Everyone's telling me to smile more and I hate it Cuz i really wanna change, really wanna be ok But it's hard when everybody's got the the same sad faces