I hope to see the day When I pick me up This drought is not the same When I create the flood Didn't believe I could be loved Didn't believe I could fuck up Should've believed I was destined to make a mess of myself Didn't know how to impress you Didn't know why I upset you Should've fell apart right when the first alarm tested my health It's all beneath me now I've been wanting to let go Find my home in the crowd Don't want you to see me as the clown Learning to change and love my mistakes Beneath me now Perfection is a curse When it clouds the core And every move is worse Than the one before Affection is a drug And it hooked me bad yeah I think it's in my blood To want what I have Didn't believe I could be loved Didn't believe I could fuck up Should've believed I was destined to make a mess of myself Didn't know how to impress you Didn't know why I upset you Should've fell apart right when the first alarm tested my health It's all beneath me now I've been wanting to let go Find my home in the crowd Don't want you to see me as the clown Learning to change and love my mistakes Beneath me now It's all beneath me now I tried to let go Find my home in the crowd Don't want you to see me as the clown Learning to change and fall out of place Beneath me now