I'm sorry I can't put you first I'm trying not to put myself last I swear I'm haunted, I swear I'm cursed Could you stand that? This doesn't mean you don't hold importance But mine is shallow You always tell me I should ignore it Yeah just like my shadow I am sick Weak in the knees Never able to conquer my bad dreams And what I don't want is to hear how beautiful you are again If I'm lost Try to be patient I'm wasted in my heart's basement Screaming I wanna be beautiful again Let me be beautiful I'm sorry I'm not always so certain Of what I mean Lose track of time and all I'm learning Wanna wash my slate clean This doesn't mean that I don't care All I ask is you keep me in mind It's not so easy when life's unfair Or when we run out of time I am sick Weak in the knees Never able to conquer my bad dreams And what I don't want is to hear how beautiful you are again If I'm lost Try to be patient I'm wasted in my heart's basement Screaming I wanna be beautiful again Let me be beautiful When you find his head, let him know he's lost in the wild He's been winging it and faking a smile I am sick Weak in the knees Never able to conquer my bad dreams And what I don't want is to hear how beautiful you are again When I'm lost Try to be honest It's lonely in this fucking closet Hoping you'll see me beautiful again Let me be beautiful Let me be beautiful I wanna be beautiful I should feel beautiful