9 pm feelin the grind Which color shade brings out my eyes? Which pattern works? my stomach hurts I've made a huge mistake If i go out tonight everything will be alright Unless i fuck it all up I wish that i wasn't afraid of parties Maybe then people would start liking me I wish that i wasn't afraid of people Maybe then there would be a lot more i could see I hate talking I hate drinking What if i just lay in bed? Play situations in my head I dont wanna get fucked up tonight Get that beer out of my face You sad sample of human race Dont wanna be the dream girl standing against the wall People crawling up my back Oh god here comes the panic attack! Maybe i should just go home after all I don't wanna be the girl with no one to talk to I just wanna be the girl who doesnt have to try Its times like these where i only feel like hiding Im walking out that door, tears are wellin' up in my eyes I hate talking I hate drinking What if i just lay in bed? Play situations in my head I dont wanna get fucked up tonight This is an illusion its a lie and its a myth Forcing myself to go out when i think i'll be missed I'll be gritting my teeth until the enamel rots Telling myself, 'you'll have fun if you like it or not'