My vanished rival you're not drowning in heartache I'm not looking for you everywhere I know I'm not lost, you're not lost and what does it matter? When somebody leaves where they go You weren't some staggering debutant I never made a stunning debut Maybe in some dark run down restaurant Your black coffee and mine so sweet I was sugar sick and we were in so deep Is that where I left you? I know sometimes smoke gets in my eyes But I seem to recall almost nothing else at all Just you across some table The rest is a mystery Our sick city fable We'll call it My Vanished Rival What's left of you and what's left of me? We explained it away so easily But I miss your highs and lows Your lows and your highs And our thousand goodbyes The first of the last of the true one and onlys Not wide eyed but careless See, what happens is the rest I still don't love you any less I still don't know what's good for me. There's some film locked away with a few other things I kept And if I watched it I might dissolve Or go up in flames Ashes to ashes 'till nothing remains