I've been cruel and foolish I've wandered in the darkness I've mostly made mistakes there Just ask the people that I take there It would take a lifetime Just begging for forgiveness It's a messy business Desperate and hopeless And it makes me wanna cry To keep from laughing Makes me want to disappear For weeks or months or even years I used to keep my eyes shut I was walking blind but I can see the light now And it's a brutal, ugly sight now I'll try to get it right, I know Don't think I'll start tonight though And it makes me wanna cry To keep from laughing