I still remember I still remember cause I can't forget I put a lot of pain and strain behind these tracks You know what I'm saying Damn, I know there's a better way lord but like Damn I'm just trying to find My salvation, my forgiveness god Know what I mean? I'm asking you to hold me close You're the highest power I know I don't know why you blessed me god But I love you, I ain't about to quit on you big dog So give me strength, K-O sounds of the eclipse About to make the song cry homie Yeah Soldier Ink - Big Stomps New Pick I still remember growing up in my neighborhood When all my neighbors were still good in my neighborhood I was a little vato tryna get a grip on life When little youngsters my age ain't packing pocket knifes Walking the streets after dark in a war zone A brokenhearted little soldier feeling all alone Tear drops and closed caskets that's all I know In the village of the damned, is what we call home Too many homies turned phonies, now they don't know me They say they love me and I wonder why they don't show me Somebody help me cause I'm lost and I'm all alone Don't understand why my daddy left me on my own The rock bottoms where the real killers come from Thats where I'm from, that's where I picked up my first gun A lost soul with no hope and no place to go Looks like to me, the whole world's out there smoking dope My life story is a book called survival I'm steady praying got my hands up on the Bible A lost soul Where will I go when my time comes? I feel it coming Now you running if my times up Too many tears over the years Too many dead peers But I'm a soldier In my veins there pumps no fear Born in the valley of the shadow of death They'll snatch your wind from your chest In peace may you rest I still remember when I lost my best homeboy Still can't forget how they shot my best homeboy So much confusion in my mind, got me asking why He never had a normal life, even though he tried Somebody tell me why my only friend had to die The cold look of the devil deep in my eyes Revenge's sweet, so blood red's what I paint the town Yellow tape and white sheets is all that's left now Cemetery gates only open one way I'm standing face to face with death almost everyday I still remember when I first seen a man die That was the first time I ever seen a man cry Gang banging on the block was the next step I'm on a mission for big money, power, respect And on the way if I have to take anothers life May god forgive us all, help me make it through the night My life story is a book called survival I'm steady praying got my hands up on the Bible A lost soul Where will I go when my time comes? I feel it coming Now you running if my times up Too many tears over the years Too many dead peers But I'm a soldier In my veins there pumps no fear Born in the valley of the shadow of death They'll snatch your wind from your chest In peace may you rest Now I think I'm going blind cause I can't see I'm letting all my pain and anger start to blind me I can't take it, wanna make it, but there's no way out Tryna figure out exactly what its all bout I had a woman but she left me cause she thinks I'm crazy I'm in a hole, all alone and no one can save me I seen her walking with the neighborhood drug dealer Hes gonna hook her on that shit even if it kills her I wonder if she even knows how much I care bout her She probably thinks its gonna be easy to forget bout her I told her she was precious like a diamond in the rough But she was hooked on that dope and couldn't get enough I had to put em to a stop, it took one pop My nine mili blew his top off, the boy dropped Murder one, I'm in the pen, thats the fucken end 25 to life and she's doing drugs again My life story is a book called survival I'm steady praying got my hands up on the Bible A lost soul Where will I go when my time comes? I feel it coming Now you running if my times up Too many tears over the years Too many dead peers But I'm a soldier In my veins there pumps no fear Born in the valley of the shadow of death They'll snatch your wind from your chest In peace may you rest My life story is a book called survival I'm steady praying got my hands up on the Bible A lost soul Where will I go when my time comes? I feel it coming Now you running if my times up Too many tears over the years Too many dead peers But I'm a soldier In my veins there pumps no fear Born in the valley of the shadow of death They'll snatch your wind from your chest In peace may you rest