I would've stayed there if you waited for me
I would've loved you, your lovin' on me
But that's where I'm wrong
Yeah, too many thoughts in my head
I've been drownin', it's takin' my sleep (takin' my sleep)
Got drugs, got fame, got money
But I feel like I'm still incomplete (like I'm still incomplete), yeah
Lost in the world and I feel like
I've been here too long, I don't feel right
Have you ever seen your nightmares come true?
Have you ever seen your demons in real life?
Fuck, things I regret
I've seen things that I can't forget
I've seen many people question God
But I feel like the only real answer's, "Death"
Look, they don't ever really understand me
Conflicted by words that I say (by words that I say), yeah
Scared to approach me
And that's why I feel like I'm always in the way
Try to write down my regrets 'til the list is done
I play with the blade 'til my wrist is numb
Pain in my heart, contradictin' thoughts
I don't really understand where I get this from, so I
Tell my pain in these stories
And I tattoo this ink in my skin (I tattoo this ink in my skin), yeah
Ever since a kid, they would say I was hurt with a thirst for revenge
I'm hurtin' again
So I fill the needle 'til I bleed (I would've stayed there)
These thoughts never wanna leave (if you waited for me)
I don't feel free (I would've loved you)
So I only feed what hurts me and turn down the help that I need (help that I need)
I don't know why I feel like this
Been so many years and I'm still like this (that's where I'm wrong)
Fucked up thoughts in my head
I've been tryna find the end, but I didn't think it'd end like this (fuck)
I would've cried there if you cried there with me
I would've loved you, your lovin' on me
But that's where I'm wrong