Yeah
Yeah
Disrespected by people I fuck with
Felt neglected by people I trusted
Left me for dead now all of 'em duckin'
Chewed me up and they spit me out like it was nothin'
Now I know that love it was never real
And I got so many wounds, it'll never heal
But I put my faith in God, I'm protected still
I need like ten mill', independent, fuck a deal
It's been a minute, I been gone for a while, huh?
Court cases, my lawyer left me on trial, huh?
They want me to fall but how can I put down these aces
They all want me to quit and throw in the towel, huh?
Little do they know, God got me
Fettuccine with the bosses like I'm John Gotti
Certain people that I peep, movin' real sloppy
All these people close to me, gettin' real oppy
Like, who can I trust now?
Who can I call to have my back when I touch down?
Who can I trust to buss back when it's sounds?
And fuck a watch, I need a friend not a buss down
My niggas rollin' blunts now, niggas pourin' Hennessy
I be more worried 'bout these friends that my enemies
I know from the start that they been plottin' on end of me
Even if they kill me, I still leave a legacy
So how the fuck you next to me and still wishin' I fail?
All the years I talked to my father through a cell
Locked in a box, my own blood, it was hell
Tears from my eyes fall but nobody could tell (Nobody could tell)
And though we had our differences, I know my pops would kill for me
I gave my all to cats who wouldn't split the bill with me
I gave my heart to the world
And you know it's yours truly 'til I'm gone
Shout out to the fans who still with me
Ayy, most of my old friends gave up on me
And my ex just tryna one up on me
Same time I know it's niggas tryna dump on me
I should ride around with the pistol grip pump on me
I mean they tried to kill me, they really tried
Bullet wounds in my flesh but I'm still alive
And you might know my story but you'll never know the pain
Of watchin' tears fall slow from your mother's eyes
Not knowin' if her son's gonna make it
But I promise ma', we'll be okay, just gotta be patient
I'm tryna cope but constantly losin' the ones I love
I could give two fucks 'bout what the internet sayin', yeah
I know who I am, I know what I'm worth
They tried to drag me down, it'll never work
They could say that I'm nothin' and they could say that I'm a failure
But they can never say my heart is made fuckin' dirt
And even though I can't sleep
I try to close my eyes to escape from reality (From reality)
And I'm runnin' towards this vision
I just feel like the devil right behind, chasin' after me (After me)
I used to try to tell people I'll make it with this music
They just turned around and laughed at me (Laughed at me)
But, don't think anything's impossible
This life I'm livin' now, they used to tell me was a fantasy, so
I'm a prosperin' artist, I got a plan
Start where you are, use what you have
Feel what you feel, do what you can
Prove everybody wrong, come up with a plan
'Cause I dropped out of school, believed in myself
Turned this pain into music and nobody helped
I was lost, can't describe the pain that I felt
But I knew I was special like nobody else, you know
The anxiety is, is one of the craziest thing that I have
Dealin' with that kind of anxiety after bein' stabbed and shot
A lot of, uh, paranoia
A lot of, just a lot of things with me where
Where it's hard for me to be around people
It may or may not seem like it but it's like real difficult (Yeah)
And when it falls down
How many numbers in my phone can I call right now?
Are they here to lift me up or they here to watch me drown?
How many people can I trust when it all falls down? (Yeah)
When it falls down, how many numbers in my phone can I call right now?
Are they here to lift me up or they here to watch me drown?
How many people can I trust when it all falls down?