Silence in solitude. What have I made of myself? What have I become? I am ashamed, behind it all I am desperate. I am afraid in every step that I might take. I have finally seen this beast step into the light. And I am fully disgusted at the very sight. This is not who I am. I am so much greater. This is not who I am. I am so much more. I am just a broken down man. Hoping to fix what I have ruined, the people I love and the love I killed. I see this bridge in the distance. That very first step might very well be the hardest thing in my life... And I have to live like this every single day. I have to live with the same face. I have to hear the same name. I have yet to come to terms. I am damaged. I have to live like this, broken, and desperate. Behind it all I have yet to come to terms. I am just a broken down man. Hoping to fix what I have ruined, the people I love and the love I killed. I am better than this.