Red labeled holy water Three sheets til I forget And I carry on until carried out This monster in me hasn't slept I drown out the demons that mess with my head Drown out the evil that lays in my bed Drown them all out when they're holding my heart Drown them all now when I'm breaking apart Oh and every time I promised Oh I swear I tried my hardest The further I sink, the more violent I land The man takes a drink, then then drink takes the man Oh I swear I tried my hardest I make art like scars and craters Counting holes punched through the walls And I carry on until I'm carried out The monster in me hears it all I drown out the demons that mess with my head Drown out the evil that lays in my bed Drown them all out when they're holding my heart Drown them all now when I'm breaking apart Oh and every time I promised Oh I swear I tried my hardest The further I sink, the more violent I land The man takes a drink, then then drink takes the man Oh I swear I tried my hardest (Grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change Courage to change the things I can And the wisdom to know the difference) Twelve steps forward and twelve steps back Self induced from a paper bag Twelve steps forward and twelve steps back Again and again and again and again And then I flirt with suicide In my intoxicated haze These knuckles arn't a shade of white Needed in the fight to hold my self restraint Oh and every time I promised Oh I swear I tried my hardest The further I sink, the more violent I land The man takes a drink, then then drink takes the man Oh I swear I tried my hardest Oh and every time I promised Oh I swear I tried my hardest