Sometimes I wish I didn't wake up
You tore my heart then gave up
Then did it again
Guess I don't need a friend
I'm stuck inside my bed at night
Lost inside my heart and mind
Wish I could find peace of mind
And finally get some rest
It's one headache, then two heart breaks
Then three more times I'll fall in love
Four more years I wish I could forget all over again
Nine long years I've been in hell
Eleven that did not go well
And eighteen that I've tried but just cant
Find myself
But
Lately
My mind's been feeling hazy
And I know that you hate me
But you say I'm the one that lazy
You tell me all the reasons why that I should love you back
But you never want to tell me why that I deserve your love
You could just say you hate me. God you're so infuriating
Took my heart and confiscated it just like you took my trust
You tell me with your actions every day, I'm not enough
Though you tell me with your words every day that you're the one
I just want to sleep and cry and find the peace that is inside
Its just a part of me that wants to clear the corners of my mond
Shut me down. Let me figure out
Shut me down. Let me figure out
Shut me down. Let me figure out again
Shut me down. Let me figure out
Shut me down. Let me figure out
Shut me down. Let me figure out again
Sometimes I wish someone could fix my mind
I'm losing sleep like every night
I write songs in bed but they're never great
I write songs alone but it gives me pain
I write songs to forget all my worst memories
To forget my life that hurting me
To forget my school and how I might be failing soon
I try to cope but how bout you cause
Every night, I'm losing sleep
It's half past two
I still think of you
I'm so tired. Not from sleep
I'm nowhere close to you
I'm such a fool
Lately
My mind's been feeling hazy
And I know that you hate me
But you say I'm the one that lazy
You tell me all the reasons why that I should love you back
But you never want to tell me why that I deserve your love
You could just say you hate me. God you're so infuriating
Took my heart and confiscated it just like you took my trust
You tell me with your actions every day, I'm not enough
Though you tell me with your words every day that you're the one
I want to sleep and cry and find the peace that is inside
Its just a part of me that wants to find the meaning of my life
I wish you'd stay with me
And not say a word
Its so hard to think what to say
When my head still hurts
But you left me again
Don't know what to say when its the end
Its always just the same way
People leave me to my head