Sometimes I get frustrated
When I see where you're at
I know comparings outdated
But I can't help but think like that
It's been four whole years and I'm raw as hell
Maybe in another four I wont feel the need to yell
Fuck you and everything you stand for
I don't think I really feel that way
It wouldn't have worked in the long run
Same old issues every day
But it woulda been nice to know you're sorry
It woulda been nice to know you knew
That I wasn't okay
That I wasn't okay
That I wasn't okay
That I wasn't okay
Same pattern night after night
Off at twelve and drinks till first light
A pattern of toxic codependency
I came to resent you, and we coulda talked it out
A symptom of my lack of sleep
And crippling self doubt
That I wasn't okay
That I wasn't okay
That I wasn't okay
That I wasn't okay
From the moment
You came into my life
I stooped to new lows
While you felt new highs
I realize that you were hurting inside
But shifting the blame to me is what caused me to run and hide
Your anger, yeah you took it out on me
And the funny thing is I was the one set free
Now alone, to face it on your own
I hope when you grow old
You don't grow cold
Yeah I wasn't okay
The time I biked to the bridge
And I wasn't okay
The time you broke my wrist
Yeah I wasn't okay
With everything you said to me
And I wasn't okay
Since that time I met you in 2017