Obsessed with making money Cuz it's all i can control It's kinda depressing Never cared bout cash before Back then getting EBT Felt like i'd won the superbowl I got hot food in me now But my heart is froze Daisy chaining cigarettes My lungs are fulla smoke I been drinking so much Trying to forget it all Everyday in reverie Thinking where I went wrong Came across an old photograph That part of me is gone Sometimes I get so faded That the world becomes a blur I just can't make sense of it It's so fucking absurd How come when I lived on the couch I was happier? Baby I don't wanna die But sometimes I get the urge lately