I just don't know, where do I go from here Dead ends, dead friends, what's left for me? Nothing can bring me back from this fucking disease I'm fucked up, blind again It's how I feel, it's how I deal with internal conflicts in my head One day I will destroy myself, I've been feeling like I'm somebody else I'm trapped in the clutches of my past mistakes What do I have to do to catch a fucking break? Distant, oh so distant, I should have let you in Constant, oh so constant, this pain just pull the pin I've been wasting my life away I am a victim to the poison in my veins All my days are spent jaded And I am losing hope that I'll find a way out Through the darkness I search for a light To illuminate the path up ahead I can feel my heartbeat rising, every second makes me feel that I am nothing Pushing my face to the ground I've been beaten and bruised, used and abused The way I see I've got nothing left to lose Thoughts creeping at the back of my mind I've gone to far and now I'm running out of time Break these fucking walls that are confining me The room is spinning, please god don't let this define me Will this ever end? Put a gun to my fucking head and set me free, oh let me start again