Love is not the origin of my depression Gender dysphoria is not the origin of my depression Poverty is not the origin of my depression I try to grasp it And every answer fails You are not the origin of my depression People ignoring me is not the origin of my depression Awkward social interactions are not the origin of my depression You are not The origin Failing everything is not the origin of my depression Disappearing is not the origin of my depression Not eating is not the origin of my depression But passing out helps It makes me me forget about it Your white dress I just dont know what it is Its nowhere in my room Its not stolen by a lover Its not ever... its not secret I try to think of every possible reason why You wouldn't love me But i don't know I don't know why i don't love There is no reason why Its aleatory You are the origin of my depression All the doors are slamming shut I used to be so confident Your war crimes so adorable I miss your white dress Every image of Is an image not of you