Careless desperation
Undermining self restraint
Still seeking substances stranger than our fictions
Jaded by monotonous standards of living
Inquired to find new release
Combative thoughts obstructed
Pursued the source of contradictions
Subsisted on soliloquies
Heightened reverence
Denying these circumstances culminated in disdain
Self awareness set aside
Accepting depletion's detrimental apathy for now
Exonerates this impulse instantly required
Will this suffice as catharsis again?
Abstain from otiose endeavors this time
Severance was never mutual when blamed alone
Accepting honesty with expansion
At least that's how it's perceived
Identify approaches executed towards ascension
Covet the constraint denied
Declaring boundaries with inhibitional reprieve
Still differing from the expectation that's set
Before their predicted deportation
More abatement, the mantra of this time spent
Constructing exceptions
Deliverance
Take the first shot now
Break
Limiting appeasement
Calculating assurance
Devolved by invading invitations
Avoiding the opinion of any adherent believer
Exception antagonist affirmed
Against the tides
Discovered potential inflamed
Define exceptional assimilation
Beyond this residential prediction
Confided reliance on aperture
Declared activation
Enabled but un-abandoned within an unsought vessel
My acceptance still undisclosed
Anecdotes garnered over time excused
Find the roots of intuition
Diminished lethargy
Concern subsided for now
See the sign divide away
My disguise just might evade
I decide wherever skies may stay
Found my place within myself
Allowed in
Still searching for what I've got left inside
Diluting ambition
Forced acquiescence again
I've got nothing left to prove for now
Permission acquired
Accented overture
Caught up in a lie with myself at the moment
Ascension demanding occupational hazards
I've got nothing to prove for now but still possess no answers
Command abandoned entrapment of my thoughts
Still on the search for what I've got left