Where do I begin? I got yellow skin Black out every night, drink till there's no light I could use a gun, cocaine is more fun Closest distance is a line for me to get out of my mind They tried to say that AA can erase the past A hundred ways, kill the pain, maybe I'll get happy, get happy Pills and alcohol and weed I can't shake the memories They tried to say therapy is gonna bring me back Check me out, ain't no doubt maybe I'll get happy, get happy Pills and alcohol and weed I can't shake the memories What you think I need? Give me some Xan to sleep I'm only living in my dreams High like my anxiety What is there to say? I'll try to make the change Baby I can make believe that you're still here for me Shake shake, shake the memories They tried to say that one day I'll Forgive myself, lose the pain, not okay I'm not happy, not happy They tried to say that one day I'll forgive myself They tried to say put the bottle back on the shelf Either way I know it won't ever help, till I get happy