Trying to understand why I'm here
Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared
Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye
It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried
Silver love in my drink
It's so hard, I try so hard to change
I try to be okay, I tried afterlife
All this pain will once subside
All my pain will last in the end
I wanna change, so hard to change
I hid my soul, it's just hard to change
Will you save my life?
I'll die on my own
Trying to understand why I'm here
Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared
Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye
It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried
I'm sitting here with all the ghosts in my hallway
Thinking about the better days when all the problems fade away
Fifty mil' that's all I want and I'ma go away
Goin' somewhere far away, spending all my better days
I see the you in me and that shouldn't be possible
Run into some obstacles and turn it into particles
Lil' angel shawty, she done played me like a cardinal
Dove right in my armory and stole right out my arsenal
You're playing with my head, you won't get away with that
I like to do what I want, if you're okay with that
I'm on a short leash, upside down just like a bat
My people watching, they plotting my aftermath
I'm feeling trapped in like I've got claustrophobia
Endless mazes, I'm trapped in my utopia
Looking for a fix I bought straight from Cambodia
Being left on seen is like my worst phobia