I hate when you crash I'm sorry you have felt like that You idolize everything I am But you don't care where I've been- I hate who I am You don't seem to understand Do you see me just like that? But do you know that I just can't? Fighting against myself until the party ends It's not good for my health but it makes me understand Tell me am I dying? cause I don't feel alive Baby I've been gone and I've been working 9-5 Crying in my bedroom I don't wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it's going by so fast I hate when you crash I'm sorry you have felt like that You idolize everything I am But you don't care where I've been- I hate who I am You don't seem to understand Do you see me just like that? But do you know that I just can't? Take any more of this A new season and a new best friend I feel so bad, I don't want to lose this Cause I'm in love with who she is I'll push everything that grew On my chest and let you through And no i don't feel deja vu When I know I love you