I recalled a memory in my room last night It was 5a.m and the sky was burned I can never sleep at all I miss when I could dream I swear I was 16 with a pocket full of beans Needed money and swore that I would get it by any means Hit the road, it was just the moon and me Felt the heat through the street with the shoes on my feet Couldn't do it alone, hit my brodie on the phone He got the OG, got the drop, then went straight to the spot He never made it out the house that night (house that night) Have you ever heard a mother cry? I said, "Please, don't hate me, you can blame me 'Cause I should've been right by your side, yeah I swear I will find a way to stay alive (stay alive) If this don't eat me alive ♪ I was corrupted by a substance, took it all in abundance Everyone I love was knowin' I was up to somethin' Those were dark days, I was really in a dark place Lookin' back, I'm glad that it was just a dark phase I had nothin', money only thing I think of Started writing poems, and turned that shit into some income Smoke some, drink some, dealin' with my demons No respect for myself, I don't know the reasons I said, "Please, don't hate me, you can blame me 'Cause I should've been right by your side, yeah I swear I will find a way to stay alive If this don't eat me alive