I'm so indecisive I don't know what to feel like I still feel alone I don't care what it seems like I try to tell myself tell myself that it's alright But I still stay up late still asking is this real life Sometimes I don't know if it's real life I just wanna know what it feels like Lost again oh I can't take it And tell me what I'm living for Back against the wall I'm just tryna find my way When depression likes to call I stay locked up in my brain Codependent standing tall that's the pillar of my pain I miss when you would call cause that would always numb the pain Numb the pain I wish you would numb the pain Whoah whoah whoah we could both runaway Ya ya ya tell me just another day That it's gonna be okay I'm scared to find this truth gotta get away Let me go now I need to get away If I told you how I feel you'd call me insane I keep praying to God that he helps rid me of this pain Sometimes I don't know if it's real life I just wanna know what it feels like Lost again oh I can't take it And tell me what I'm living for Back against the wall I'm just tryna find my way When depression likes to call I stay locked up in my brain Codependent standing tall that's the pillar of my pain I miss when you would call cause that would always numb the pain Just let me fall I can't even think straight Anxious I don't feel right Stopping at the green light Void getting bigger I don't know what it feels like I'm so indecisive I don't know what to feel like I still feel alone I don't care what it seems like I try to tell myself tell myself that it's alright But I still stay up late still asking is this real life Sometimes I don't know if it's real life I just wanna know what it feels like Lost again oh I can't take it And tell me what I'm living for Back against the wall I'm just tryna find my way When depression likes to call I stay locked up in my brain Codependent standing tall that's the pillar of my pain I miss when you would call cause that would always numb the pain